It's time to start a new chapter in my life. When the realization of this hit me yesterday, I was filled with sadness and a little fear. As a writer I know a new chapter means conflict, and conflict often involves pain or frustration.
I've been comfortable being in charge of Children's Ministry. I know kids, teaching, curriculum, dealing with parents. I can do that. But this new ministry to which God is calling me is something I'm so unsure of. The thought of speaking His truth to strangers and sharing my heart with people I don't know makes me feel nauseous. I don't know what conflicts I might face and I'm not certain I will have the answers. It's a scary place to be.
Then today I spoke with a friend who told me she was so excited to start a new chapter in her life. She is looking forward to all the good times and the change it will bring. I realized how right she was. Maybe this chapter will reveal more about my character, grow me in ways I never imagined, bring blessings beyond my belief.
There will be conflict, but the Lord promises to work all things for my good. There will be uncertainty, but He will give me wisdom. And there will be happy times and hard times to share with others and blessings I don't deserve. Unfortunately I don't know the ending, but it gives me peace to know He's already written it...and it is for His glory and my good.
